TW SELF HARM!!!!!

relapsing sux


JUNE 30 2024
this is ironic, isnt it?

so i relapsed right after saying thingss were getting better, whoops. Went to work for the first day since and it was weird, turns out depression makes your exectuive function worse, who knew!! Anyways i'm tempted to tell my therapist about it but 1. i dont want to dissapont her (an unreasonable fear but still) and 2. I dont want to get sent to a mental hospital!! but also i got that app i see literally everyone who's trying to recover using. It's cute, i like it.

i was particularly slow at work today and i think they noticed. It was really awkward because i could tell they were trying to help but i feel bad :sob: they are too nice to me...



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recent mood ;p

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(through tears) PLZ LISTEN TO THIS SONG, DON'T JUST READ THE LYRICS IT READS SO WEIRD.

[Intro]
It's like 36 degrees here
Celsius
Don't hate this until you rate this
Don't knock this until you rock this (That's right)
Come on, Adrian, sing us a song
(Come on, Adrian, sing us a song)

[Verse 1]
I cut myself shaving
It wasn't intentional, yeah
I went to a party
I put a picture of you in my wallet
I wore a suit, suit, suit
It did not suit my style
I wore my brand new belt (uh-huh)
And now I know how Ian Curtis felt

[Chorus]
Oh, my little pretty one, I touch myself
I touch myself
And everywhere I look I always find myself aside myself
I think I'm all together
But I tear myself apart
Because I cut myself
I cut myself
I cut myself
I cut myself

[Verse 2]
Shaving
You fuck yourself way too hard
You wouldn't be cool if it weren't for the lessons that you learned in The Bell Jar
In the white room, you shoot me dead
I'm in the air, in subatomic particles
In my bathroom and in my bed
With Hustler magazine
I read it for the articles

[Chorus]
Oh, my little pretty one, I touch myself
I touch myself
And everywhere I look I always find myself aside myself
I think I'm all together
But I tear myself apart
Because I cut myself
I cut myself
I cut myself
I cut myself

Oh, my little pretty one, I touch myself
I touch myself
And everywhere I look I always find myself aside myself
I think I'm all together
But I tear myself apart

[Outro]
Here's a list of cute foods (what?)
Squash
Chicory
Bubble and Squeak
Pork pie
Fairy bread
Dim sims
and potato cakes (ham!)
Ham on the bone
Ham in general
Creme Caramel
Dr. Pepper
(Choc-tops)
Paddle Pops
Gummi Bears
Gingerbread men
Chupa Chups
Red Rum
Souffle
Guacamole
Toffee Apple
Hot dog
Abalone
Kompot
Chicken strips
Sorbet
Eggs Benedict
Gravy
Brain.
next..?