AAAAAUGH I GET SO ANGRY AND I DONT WANT TO BE!!!!! rrrrgh
hey if you know me irl you probably don't want to read this
April 28 2024
inoticed recently that i get really possesive and also really pissed whenever by partner hangs out with this one guy???? I think it's reasonable because he genuinely idolizes real actual whole ass seral killers and incels and (more importantly) whenever we were dating he would pressure me into doing.. stuff i really didn't want to do. I used to get anxiety attacks when either of them would text me whenever we were dating because of.. so many things that happened. Like whenever he's around me and i hear his voice again i feel so vulnerable and i panic and i just have to!!! get the fuck away!!! But anyways my partner's been posting them together recently and idk it just makes me really pissed (protective instinct maybe???) and i guess the 'JuSt DoNT lOoK aT thE pOsTs!!' thing applies here but i really don't want to unfollow my partner :C
i literally don't even have anything against him rlly whY AM i like this
anyways on a totally unrelated note i have a job now!!!! (ok well not yet i still have to do paperwork and deal with the wrath of my dad) but i feel like whoever reads this might want that udate since i wass freaking out last entry a little bit.
i’m going to fill my lungs
i’m going to fucking yell
i’m going to have fun
way out in the sun and
i’m going to love myself
well if you want my blood
i’ll make so much blood
that you’re gonna fucking drown
i’ll always roll along
i’ve always been strong
getting stronger than myself
everyday im wishin for something i know will never come
everyday im sick & sissy stuck in bed i cant get up
everyday im dreamin and in all my dreams i fall in love
everyday im sick & sissy fuck the world just sing the song
it feels like i’m under water
not content to do whatever
i hate every little choice I’ve made so
I’ve got no choice but to keep moving forwards
i hope one day life will be better
climb a ladder made of my sweat and
blood but the blood eater hungers
everything just keeps getting harder
next..?